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yippee...another huge week... behind me, another one ahead of me.  However there is a sense of gratification of working towards a goal...  paying my house off.  I can't say that I have done this all by myself... I did have parents that invested  in us when we were little.  We never received any allowances as children...so glad.   Instead they set up a money market account for us and applied 20 dollars a month.  So now I am cashing that in, 10,000 dollars to pay down my house.  But on sad and discouraging note, 35,000 of this mortgage was to pay off someones high  interest credit card debt.  This is another price I have to swallow for that one decision I made back in 1995.  There is always a bright side to every bad decision, I am reminded everyday.  My children are not teenagers yet.  They better not ruin my bright side.  I better remind them of their great responsibility to me... lol. 

I worked today, came home and slept...Love LOve to sleep.  I just love it.  After that I drove over to my others to pick up my boys.  My brother is starting to take interest in my boys.  Praise God.  They so need to get out of this house and find out what men do on saturdays.  My lazy daisy wasn't excited, but my skyler did well. 

This evening we went to get the kiddos their school shoes.  Gabby's 75.oo nike.  Skyler got the 50 percent of pair that went with the deal today; 15.00.  Jacob and Morgan free. Yeah, I love underarmor and my connections.  Each child has a new book bag also.  FREE.  Thank you Lord.  School supplies 75.00, we reuse supplies from last year also.  My mom took Gabby because I really do not have time, and I hate to shop, well she said that I was her charity case this year...and paid the whole part.  Thank you mama.  The dad contributed a whopping 0 amount.  I know how to pick them. 

So after we purchased our shoes, I talked the kids into going into LOWES.   I love that place... almost as much I like Sleeping.  I have such a creative mind and I know that I am gonna find the time someday.  Maybe I will steal some of the time from my love of sleeping and do crafting instead of sleeping.  Amazing, a couple of years ago, actually months ago,  I could only sleep 4-5 hour a night.  I still stay up until 100 am, and wake up at 600am, but I take an hour nap each day. 

Ok it is almost midnight and my kids are still upstairs goofing around.  I just yelled up the steps 4 times, at the top of my lungs for Jacob....no response....so I went to steps and began screaming to the point of a headache.  He heard me calling his name, but choose to ignore me.  Then he says why are you screaming.  REALLY....what am I going to do with these kids.  I cant continue like this.  I guess I should take a belt upstairs and start using it on them.  I know that this isnt politically correct, but neither is that behavior.  I will not spare the rod because our failure of a government tells me I have to....  You read the tension between these words.  These kids need to listen.  Doing this without reinforcement is hard.  Today Jacob told me he wasnt going with my dad to help my brother.  That will never happen again, or he will be finding a new place to hang his hat.  Well not really bc I do want him to make something of himself.  IN less than 2 weeks I will have a teenager living in this house.  MY son JACOB is going to be 13


well church tomoro...PRaising God and hoping that I can get up and make it tomoro...I have a hard time getting out of bed on sunday morning