MY nerves

Yes, my nerves are shot. Skyler had a darling friend over for the night and my kids were out of control. They were fighting, screaming, obnoxious and the list goes on. I couldnt very well add to the chaos, so I remained controlled. I wanted to yank each and every one of them. It will take me a very long time to allow them to have a friend overnight again. They just do not know how to act. AND I may add that I am not exagerating because the little boy wanted to go home....and he did. However I am angry with them. They acted like brats. Each one lost his mind and manners. They never sit still for a moment. Hence, chaos.



In addition to the new friend, we had neighbors here. I love my neighbors, but I am tired of entertaining them constantly. I am tired of all the technology and how that is the only way they know how to interact. Kellen the cute little boy, wanted to play outside.... go figure my kiddos only wanted to play with technology. So now the summer is over and we have wasted it. This is partly my fault because I have been so busy that it is easier for me to allow them to quietly sit in front of this annoying technology.



Dear Lord,



Help me in all this... I will try to do my part,,,, but lord, this part of the fruit of the spirit,,,, self control is very tough on my right now. I have so many blessings.... sooooo many. thank you for reminding me. I also confess that i had an episode of jealousy today, which is something I would rather not experience. Lord help me to be an overcomer in that area also. You know that it wasnt exactly that I was coveting, mine problem is that I am lonely and i crave relationships more than anything. especially ones that are centered around YOU. I do not have many of those relationships. I always excuse it as people are judging me and what Christian wants to hang out with a dysfunctional Christian woman who has very little to offer. I am viewed as exhausting. 

A friend shared with to me today that  she was having lunch with someone from my church and when she mentioned me, this sister in Faith, had a less than desireable look.  My friend, I guess stuck up for me, telling her that i have the kindest heart she knows.  Lord did she really.  Do I have a kind heart.  Jesus are you listening to me now?  I know I should open your word and see what you want me to know.  I am exhausted.... but I will and Hopefully I will talk  to you tomorrow.  I better go because this technology isnt doing very well for me tonight.  I love you and am so thankful that you are listing to me.  I will check your word before I go to bed.  Good night, give me sweet thougths and a forgiving nature.  So many I should add to this prayer.... i will... friend with schizophrenia, mother who is hospital,  friend who left her husband,  my kids, my ex, my parents... oh the lady that ask me to pray for her dad and that he would come to you before he dies....especially him.  I know there are more, i just cant think right now.  hugs... please say hi to crystal...go up and hug her and tell her that I am thinking of her... and the other little children....  oh i wish i could feel that....

amen

Reality

Hello, It is late and I just want to go to sleep.  Currently my 2 children that are here are driving me insane.  They are my high maintenance children.  Meaning it is 11:00 at night and they are whining, constantly begging for something, and asking me to entertain them.  This is one of those habits I want to change.  I want to have the time to tend to them for a moment then let them try on their own.  But instead, I am telling for the 10 th time to go to bed.  I know that they only want my attention. 

Skyler and Gabby both are at a friends house tonight. 

I had to work.  Which is a constant, and will not change. 

I want something better in the sense of structure and discipline.  I want them to know what is expected of them, what is good for them, and how they can function without my constant instruction. 

I believe they spend way too much time with the technology of today.  I am sick of the I pad, I pod, X box, Netflix....  They need to create their own entertainment.  So that is one of my many challenges. 

Who do I go to for help....Who else....  MY Heavenly Father:

Dear Father,

Greeting in Jesus name.  Help me get my kids structured and to restore simplicity without the computer games.  I am soooo sick of them.  So give me wisdom and insight.  Give the kids a desire to do something beyond those options.  Help us to be creative in our free time.  Productivity and structure.  Thank you for giving me this day.  Thank you for the meal.  Thank you for our help and thank you for our provision.  Please be with the childrens earthly father and continue the work in him.  Keep  him where he needs to be.  In his abscense, please be the Father to my children.  Teach them to reach out to you.  Give them a desire to seek YOU.  Thank you and love you.  In Jesus Name amen.

sheila

Tomorrow is a new day.  Today was a good day.  I want to see improved productivity and the beginning of structure in this home.  I am hoping to begin with menus and groceries.  To apply a budget. 

BEGINNINGS

Welcome to the blog world.   We, the Kries Clan are going to bring some order and structure into our Home.  What better way than BEGINNING around our table.  We have called this "table time" in the past.  Our dining room in our home as a huge dinner table.  Not exclusive to fine dining.  Which to people that know us, know that we don't do alot of fine dining; more like macaroni and cheese or ramon noodles. 

This is not going to be easy.  However, I believe "with the God I serve, all things are possible"!

So I shall start with a prayer to the only one who can pull this off,  bc at the moment I want to laugh.  I am the disorganizer, the fly by the seat of my pants, kind of person. 

Dear Heavenly Father,
I need help, I need structure, I need patience with my kids.  I have so much I need to teach them and so much I want to accomplish.  YOU know my many weaknesses.  You know what needs to be accomplished.  I ask for YOUR direction.  I commit my cooperation and determination.  My motivation, I confess, is for me and not YOU, but I hope that in the process it can show me who YOU are and bring me closer to YOU.  Lord keep me faithful, keep me on the path that leads me in the oppisite direction of the enemy.  Thank you dear Father.  Please tell Paul I said hello, and the Holy Spirit to take over my mind and heart.  Thank you Jesus and this is in YOUR name....amen